There is big news in our household: after what can only be described as one of the hardest years of my life, full of health breakdowns and terrible scares, ambulance rides and unexpected surgery, unimaginable loss, and financial instability, the ship seems to be righting itself and finally heading to calmer waters. It’s been almost a year since the company Anthony worked for eliminated 100 positions – including his – and he has made great use of his time. In addition to taking care of some much-needed surgery, ending our infertility streak, and helping me through a difficult pregnancy, he’s been researching alternate career paths. We live in one of the hardest-hit areas of the country for unemployment and although he applied for every job in his same field he’s found, competition is fierce, so we investigated starting over in a few related and new fields, too. He never gave up on the search for a viable career within our rural-suburban hometown where we could remain where many of our friends and the bulk of our family live. All the work he’s put in over the last year has paid off and Anthony was hired by a local company that makes use of his talents and the classes he’s taken during this time. It is a fantastic opportunity. In addition to this, there are a couple of other opportunities presented to us, and within the next month or so we’ll be called on to make some big decisions.
I still have lingering anxiety about our situation. Part of me has a hard time trusting that things are improving and part of me is weighed down by the gravity of the decisions we will have to make. Sometimes change, even good change, is scary. We are just going to have to make the best decision we can with the information we have. We each have the resources to deal with life if things don’t go as planned, something I know now to a degree I wouldn’t have thought possible a year ago. If there’s anything this experience has taught me is that Anthony and I can rely on each other through anything. Stress like this can often tear a relationship apart, but we’ve used it to grow stronger. And we never would have made it this far without the support and love of our families and a vast network of friends who are there for us should we need them.
Now that Anthony’s started working again, I’m officially back to the solo parenting grind. Today hasn’t been ideal because I have a fever and feel extra terrible, but other than that it’s going really well. Check in with me in about a week, and we’ll see if I’m still smiling and relax or if I’ve become the stereotypical harried mother with bags under my eyes and a short temper.
Things are improving but change doesn’t come overnight. We expect things will still be difficult for awhile until we figure things out and build momentum in this new direction. Spring has arrived in seemingly unending winter of our life, and its sweet breath feels like relief.