Although I’ve made enormous strides and have been an active part of my recovery from PPD, there are still days when it sneaks up on me and robs the color from life. Days where my husband finding a good job in this economy seem too rough, days when my job here with the students seems too fragile, days when I miss the comfort of being an innocent child myself.
I was having one of those mornings when my cousin called with a stroke of luck, and I decided to make a list of all the good things that have happened lately in order to be properly grateful.
I am lucky because:
* We live near family who never hesitates to be a part of Isobel’s life. My Mom comes over at the drop of a hat to care for her if something unexpected comes up in our schedule. My Dad usually visits during that time, too, and Isobel is making beautiful bonds with them. Anthony’s family is just as involved, with Anthony’s Grandma, Mama Juani, watching Isobel at least once a week and my mother in law who relishes her frequent visits. On top of the good fortune of living near her Grandparents, she spends Fridays at my Uncle’s house where my mom watches her while she plays with my three year old cousin Victoria and my 6 month old cousin Sam. She sees my aunt, my uncle and my cousin Sarah more frequently than I do. On Anthony’s side she’s becoming great pals with Anthony’s small cousins Serena and Jewel.
* The recent rain last weekend brought with it a beautiful rainbow, Isobel’s first. When I tweeted about this rainbow several people asked me if it was a double-rainbow, and yes, actually, it sort of was as we could see a faint image of another rainbow above it. It wasn’t what I would call so intense, but I did figure out what does it mean… It means the rain is gone. Deep, I know. Rainbows, double or not, are lucky.
* It’s officially October which means it’s officially my birthday month. Yay! I have two dear friends who also have October birthdays, Stef and Zack, and we’re going to see how much celebrating we can pack into one autumnal month. Halloween is coming up and that’s always a big deal for us as we love to dress up. October is pretty much awesome, and it brings with it the added bonus of temperatures cooling down from the mid-nineties.
* My cousin Liz’s friend, Laurie, won FOUR TICKETS TO SEE YO GABBA GABBA LIVE in Sacramento next month. Laurie’s own children are grown so she had no idea what Yo Gabba Gabba was when the radio station contest she won said she’d be getting tickets. “Maybe it’s a Mexican band,” she thought to herself as she googled YGG. She had certainly never heard of it and it didn’t really sound like English. When she found out it was the best children’s show ever* (*according to Isobel) she offered the tickets to my cousin who then called me. The two of us are going to take Victoria and Isobel to the show of their lives come November, and I couldn’t be more excited.
* It’s pumpkin time! I love fall and look forward to picking out our pumpkins every year. Last year our pumpkins kept so well I decided to take bets to see how long we could keep them before they rotted. The first two passed away sometime over the summer not from age so much as from Isobel throwing them around and getting dented and mushy. Since I still had three perfectly fine pumpkins (if rather aged) I set them on our porch earlier last month. I heard my mother in law comment on how together we were since we all ready had our pumpkins out. Suckers! Those were last year’s pumpkins! JOKE’S ON YOU, FAMILY! WE’RE NOT WITH IT AT ALL! I STILL HAVE A VALENTINE’S DECORATION UP FROM 3 YEARS AGO! Of course over the weekend the sun did them in and my pumpkins turned into a sort of a gross lumpy puddle and they had to be hosed off the cement. But I still consider myself lucky for picking out pumpkins with such wonderful longevity.
I’m not always happy, but I do try to always be grateful.